you came into my life.
it's hard to let you out now. even though,
how much i actually wish for you to.
but, it's just too difficult.
you became a part of me.
sadly, a very impt part. but yet,
we hurt each other too many times uncountable.
is this what's meant to be.
you're tired.
so am i. shd we just all take a break?
i need an answer. it's just sad that you wouldnt be reading all these and tell me
the answer i need.
i dread the answer, somewhat. cause i roughly know the words you're gna use.
but yet again, i look forward to it.
such that i would be able to heave a sigh of relief and think
it's all over.
it's hard to wait. it's hard to think.
i cant think. i cant wait.
friday.
the tears may fall. or just get stuck inside.
devoid of emotions.
happy? no.
sad? no. i guess.
you just wait.
for what i'm gna tell you.
for now, i'm just praying for a miracle.
that my mouth wouldnt NEED to say a thing on fri.
friday.
dont drag anyone in. you unhappy with me.
tell me.
you dont go ard stepping all over my friend.
you *generosity.
UGH. what a chg of mood.
i'm embarrassed.
for all the words i have used in the messages to you.
w/o a reply, it adds to my embarrassment.
i hate you. i guess now i really do.
easy to say.
but upon meeting you. it disappears.
to simply more hate.
i'm getting all pissed now.
save me.
what have i done to my life? it's screwed.
wish i could just lay in bed forever.
no thoughts, no dwellings.
just lay in bed.
i guess the special 3 is gna stay at 3.
no 4th, no 5th.
i'm staying strong.
for hardo gay is gay.
for hardo gay makes me laugh and then cry.
i need a yrc.
but not in broad daylight.
the world is turning upside down.
MY world is turning upside down.
weirdly, it aint you who's trying hard to make it right.
ironically, you, the impt one. is turning it the wrong way round.
whatever it may be.
to another person: if you want, you may have. i'm giving up. friday
and yet again, to you: friday, just wait. you can have whoever you wanna. you aint messing with my life no longer. no jealousy, hopefully no regrets. my mind's made up. only if you persuade me not to, i wont chg my mind
for now, i'm missing you.
DANCED- 11:39 AM